I'm behind on NaNoWriMo (which I am doing a month late)
Dammiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit >.<

Also: Hanchul, gtfo of my head, kthxbai. I will not write more fanfiction.
I will also not write Peacemaker Kurogane fanfics, and oh god this is hard not to do.
I wisll also never finish writing the Tekken fic I started. Yeah, just no >.>;

I really want to finish the book I'm reading [Kafka on the Shore] but I'm currently endeavouring to watch all 224 episodes of Yu-Gi-Oh! No, don't ask. Yes, I like YGO. Bite me. Ok, so I skipped Duelist Kingdom and will skip all the filler because I really just want to watch all the awesome Egyptian stuff coz Egyptian mythology = win forever.

I think I'm getting conjunctivitis again, which sucks :<
I have my license test on Tuesday. Fingers crossed.

Might head back to Wollongong on Wednesday for a few days because I am bored.




Yosh.

Today started good but ended shitty.

What threw me off the most was that this guy (whom I have posted about alot on here, say 16 months ago) randomly started talking to me online. This guy who was the first boy to really actually hurt me, started up this convo "hey how are you - how'd you go with uni - what're upto - plans for next year - whats news -" etc etc. Really really quite strange. I have not spoken to him for about 12 months (the last time we spoke we ran into each other through a mutual friend, so we were sitting around talking coz of that) and then today, he's acting like a good friend. Weird, because we never were friends. We only spoke during that month or so that we were hooking up. So yeah, that really got me down because it brought back alot of stuff I really didn't want to remember nor think about.

Then later in the day, I get hte opportunity to go to Canberra and visit my best friend who I haven't seen for ages coz another friend of mine was going over there tonight, and coming back tomorrow. When I rang her, she seemed all for it, so i got really excited and was all for it and stuff coz I've been dying to do something different for weeks now. Then half an hour or so later, she sends me a message saying no because its not worth it as we wouldn't really get to do anything or spend much time together. That really hurt because I was looking foreward to it, and because little time is better than no time. Also, she has a photography exhibition on tomorrow night which I could have gone to had I gone to Canberra. The other week she asked me to go to Canberra for that, but now, she says no? I don't understand. And yeah, it really upset me.

And once again I'm stuck in the trap of nothing-i-like-cheers-me-up-or-makes-me-happy. So it just makes me even more bored and depressed. Everything I like doing, just doesn't interest me. So I end up just sitting looking at the wall, or lying in bed pretending or attempting to sleep.

I really don't know whats going on.
I just don't feel right.

:/

Man I was so excited when I discovered a meme I haven't done yet!!! :D

Stolen from unna_rainchaser



- my username is ______ because ______.
Jinnizzle, which is the combination of Jin Kazama (from Tekken) and Mike Shinoda's (of Linkin Park) nickname "Shinnizzle." Came up with it like, when I was 13 and obviously I was obsessed with Tekken and LP at the time (clearly, not much has changed :P) and its since been my online screenname everywhere. Find a Jinnizzle on a message board or something somewhere, its probably me.

- my name is _____ because ______.
Jessica, because my mother clearly was not very creative when naming my sister and I (whose name is Emily). For those that don't know, in the years we were born, Emily and Jessica were the two most popular girls name

- my journal is titled ____ because ____.
Hate Me, Take Me, which is a line from Savage Garden's song "Break me, Shake me." I used this because its vaguely sexual, and lets face it, my journal is also :P

- my friends page is called ____ because ____.
Lovers, because I was feeling a little uncreative. And I love you guys :3

- my default userpic is ____ because ____.
Heechul, because I recently updated my icons and am currently obsessed with Super Junior (and Heechul, obviously)



Now, wasn't that fun and informative :D

I restarted my sewing today. Went and dug up my half-started tartan pants I was making like, two years ago. Figured I finally should sew them together, considering its all cut and pinned and what not.

I also want to dig out my kanji text book and do some study. Yes, I want to do study. For starters, I don't want to forget anything, but there was also alot of stuff that I didn't quite know that I need to know before next year. Suppose I should do that now why I have nothing to do.

I kinda hate being bored. In a way I'd rather be stressed outta my brain busy than have nothing to do. Atleast when I'm busy I don't get stuck sitting around doing nothing. My mind gets idle, and thats bad, because then I dwell on shit, then I freak out about stuff, then I go insane and breakdown insues. 8D;;

I'm annoyed coz I can't download anything til Christmas, which decreases what I'm able to do :/ Urrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrgh.

I'm so god-damn tired. WHY CAN'T I SLEEP!?!

*whimpers*

I'm feeling depressed and self-loathing.
Cheer me up.


Go.

Title: Ain't Love Grand?
Pairing: Hankyung/Heechul
Rating: PG
Warnings: Language.
Summary: An enraged Heechul gives Hankyung a piece of his mind after seeing his performance on Star King.
Notes: Inspired by the video and following comments posted here. Written for Amna in exchange for making my new header.
I edited it a few times buuut there is still probably errors. Oh well.



( Ain't Love Grand? )